So it looks like we are going to be moving soon...

On the 2nd of march we are going to be picking up the keys to our new home.  And its going to be ours!!! Today I got the pre approval for the home loan to buy a house.  I am ever so happy.  I can't believe that the boys and I are going to be owning our very own house.  Its not the flashest house in the world but it will be ours.  I can't wait to get into painting and decorating it to make my mark on it.  I already have so many fantastic ideas and can see that I will be doing a lot of painting and handyman jobs over the next year or so.  Mister 5 is even more excited then me I think he has all these plans for his bedroom and has already picked his room out luckily it is the one that I had planned on him having.  The best part is the boys will even have their own toy room as there is a small 'sunroom' that we can use as a play room for them that means no more or well very few toys on the floor in the bedroom and the lounge room something that currently annoys me.  So I expect that over the next year there will be lots of blogs about my painting adventures and any other from of renovations that may take place once we move in.  OOOOOH I have never been this excited in my life...
Here is our house

Its that time of night again..

Waring this is going to be a woe is me entry....
This is the time of night that I find hard as a single mum....its the moments following the children going off to sleep when it would be nice to sit on the sofa and snuggle with someone and have an uninterrupted  adult conversation.  I guess its some what harder as there is a special someone that I would like sitting beside me on the sofa but for various reasons its just not possible.  I wish at times that we could sort things out and go back to what we used to have..it wasn't perfect or even normal but it was good and a beautiful little boy is proof of that.  I am not really sure what happened but something did and as a result things are complicated.  Its not that I want it all I was happy not living with him and just spending weekends with him doing things and enjoying each others company but even that doesn't happen all that often.  Mostly I just find myself missing him and wishing I could be with him but still finding myself alone.  We have tried ending things completely but it doesn't last long.  I really can't work out why he still keeps coming back its not like he couldn't get someone else because he can.  I don't know I just can't seem to work men out they never know what they do or don't want these days.
So long story short I am feeling lonely and missing the man that I love and more then anything else at the moment I wish that I could be wrapped up in his arms watching something stupid and pointless on the tv but more so I guess that I wish that I could tell him that I miss him.............

You know your a moody bitch when...

Your contemplating stabbing yourself in the face with a rusty fork....OMG even I am annoyed at how moody I am at the moment.  Its a combination of lack of sleep, the messed up weather (hot one day freezing the next), misbehaving children and the side affects of the stupid contraception I am now on.   If my mood doesn't improve in the next few weeks with cooler weather and more sleep then I will be having the damn little rod removed from my arm otherwise I might just have to slap myself silly or worse.  The last time that I was this moody was when I was trying to get pregnant with mister 5 and was taking very large doses of clomid which is a fertility drug.  I find it somewhat amusing that once getting pregnant was something I had to work really hard for now its something that I have to prevent.  Its funny how life works sometimes.  I prefer the latter though as it meas that if and when I do decide to have another child I know it wont be so hard (well I hope that it wont).  Anyway i really should feed the fur babies and get my backside into bed I plan on sleeping in and pity the person that tries to wake me before 9 am...It wont be pretty......

My Pussy has no street credit!

The feral cat has been getting his ass whipped by a cat that is half his size which I am pretty sure is actually female... Its quite sad really, watching him cower on the front patio with his tail all bushy and his heckles up scared and howling like a baby while this tiny little girly looking cat takes swipes at him.  As soon as I open the door to try and sort it out he comes racing in and hides behind the safety of my skirt (well he would if I wore one) and then as soon as she is gone he whines to go back out just so he can sit there and wait for her to come back and have another go at him...I think it might be time to take him to the vet and have his testicles removed because he is obviously never going to actually use them...Really why is it the males I seem to pick lack one thing or another I cant even seem to pick a decent cat these days...

Welcome 2012

What a great start to the new year.  I had an awesome night with my friends and our kids.  Fireworks at 9pm were great the kids loved it.  Then sparklers at midnight which I think I enjoyed more then the kiddies.  I think i finally made it to bed sometime after 2 and the baby had me up again at about 6 but I am doing quite well although I do have to think about getting to work on my essay which is due in a week... I have started towards my first goal for the year and started looking at homes to buy there are some that are in my price bracket that i really like the look of so fingers crossed it can happen for us :) I would love nothing more then to own my own home that the boys and I can leave our mark on.  So here is hoping for one huge debt in my near future.

A quick goodbye to 2011

Wow what a year it has been it seems like only yesterday that I was waiting for 2011 to begin.
A lot has happened.   I gave birth to another beautiful boy who is quite good already at attracting women, been covered in copious amounts of chunky warm regurgitated milk, had my heart broken by the one person that I thought I could trust, started uni and ticked another thing off my bucket list  (something that only I know about so I have no intentions on sharing that one) ... Made some new friends and lost some old ones.  Adopted a cute (at the time) but annoying cat.  Travelled to QLD with 2 young children and managed to upset a few people in the process but that is their issue if they are not adult enough that the world doesn't revolve around them that is fine.  
I was holding onto a dream that I now know will never eventuate so I have decided that it is time to let go of that and follow some new ones.  Who knows what the future will hold.
So tonight as the sun sets on 2011 and I am sitting out the back with my friends having a bundy or 4 I will make a promise to myself to let go of the bad parts of my past and embrace the unknown of the future and just enjoy life as a single and free woman who is about to embark on one of the most exciting parts of her life with 2 handsome little men at her side....
Goodbye 2011 and hello to the new and exciting 2012 please bring with you many happy moments and if its not too much to ask a hot man to call my own would be nice too :)

Ever wonder what makes a person just that little bit crazy??

 I used to but I think that I have finally worked it out.... A combination of 2 little boys one aged 5 and one who is 9 months old a 2 year old Beagle called Princess and a feral cat called Frankie.  Throw in the joys of running a household on a shoestring budget and the pressure of university study and man troubles and I reckon you will be  almost at crazy.

My life is hardly worth writing about but I thought that I might give it a go anyway just for the fun of it.  You never know I might actually get something from it.  

2011 has seen some ups and downs new additions to my family and new challenges to face but even with all that has gone on it has been a very rewarding year and I am hoping that 2012 will either bring the man I fell in love with 2 years ago back to me or will see me in the arms of a man who is worthy of my love.  But for now my bed and my littlest boy is calling out to me.  Night all Mumma of two xo